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The prize far outweighs the price At this point I would like to think that Elisabeth Elliot has become my spiritual mentor. She tells me to obey Christ with reckless abandon.  At times I wonder what it is that she would say if she were right here in my suffering. She would cheer me on. She would applaud my searching heart.  The Poem: The Prize Far Outweighs The Price  God beckons me.  He calls my name.  He pursues me.  He runs after me.  He is a jealous God and He wants me to Himself.  How shall I refuse when He gave Himself for me.  How shall I refuse when death was the price he paid for the prize.  I was the prize that far outweighed the price–not even death was too much. 

More often than not people think that suffering is a curse from God. Maybe there is something that you did that took away God's protection and love from you. That's a lie. Reading Elisabeth Elliot's A Path through Suffering has revolutionized the way I view suffering, particularly mental health conditions.  In our culture depression is a form of evil spirit. Yes at times it does come with the devil's tempering. But remember that Jesus told Peter that Satan had asked to sift him as wheat but Jesus would intercede for him and reassured him that his faith would not fail. Imagine that, Jesus Christ saying out your name, praying for you. Depression means you can't pray.  Jesus wasn't specific but simply said he would be sifted as wheat. In the end we see him agonizing so much on his denial of Jesus but his faith didn't fail when he repented. Maybe drugs have led you into depression. Maybe evil spirits have led you into depression. Maybe God's will has led you...

 Hi there. I’m Monica.  I have lived experience with mental health. Just yesterday I was laughing with my little brother telling him that if what happened to me was to be a movie, it would be scary. I wouldn’t want to watch it.  But it would be a Christian movie because God wrote my story. I wouldn’t change it for anything because at the core of it is the hand of God. The same hand that propelled me to start this blog to share insights with those struggling with mental health.  Elisabeth Elliot's A Path Through Suffering helped me realize that God wasn't punishing me. My pain was meant to encourage you, and that made it bearable.  Consider me the friend who knows what it is to live with mental illness. One who is learning to find strength in the Word of God. I will share poetry, scripture, and encouragement with you, and there will be a few tears and laughs, but all to strengthen you.  I’m so glad you’re here.